Keepin' it real...
Okay. So, where do I begin?........
I'll start with last Friday. I traveled along with the gospel choir to a statewide gospel conference. I was really reluctant in going because quite honestly, I was tired and did not feel like being bothered with people for an entire weekend. But, I pushed all that aside and went into the trip with an open mind.
The first night was a great time; a good speaker, some decent food, and some wonderful fellowship with not only my own choir members, but with members from other choirs too (including, let's call him, infamous Mr. Cornelius). By the way, he asked about my lovely friend Lee. I told him that she was well. He proceeded to say that he had seen Lee on television and was shocked with what he saw; needless to say, he had a jolly good time talking about Lee. But, I stuck up for my friend. That's what friends are for.
Let's get back on track here. On Saturday, I experienced a message that caused me to feel a way that I have never felt before. The speaker is well known for his controversial messages, and after listening, I can clearly see why. Although I agreed with his message in some regards, I was disturbed by his message also. It came to a point where I started to get a little upset because his message insinuates that as Christians, we have to prove our Christianity to fellow believers. I feel that my personal relationship with God is proof enough and just because I may listen to certain music artists, does not mean that I am any less of a Christian. The last time I checked, my God is a mighty God and because of my faith, He will not allow for the enemy to attack my spirit because it's not the devil's to attack - it's the Lord's. Jesus is my homeboy. He's got my back.
Now, don't get me wrong. I learned a lot from that message. I learned that I need to be more aware of what I allow to penetrate my mind by doing more research. I need to educate myself because there is no excuse for not knowing. So, I actually appreciate the speaker for speaking about what he did this past weekend. May God bless him.
I did more singing at that conference than what I had ever done before. I'm surprised that I did not lose my voice. And the awesome part is that on Sunday, the choirs were absolutely incredible. God's presence was truly in the atmosphere. It's so encouraging to see college students boldly glorifying God through song and giving Him praises through various forms of ministry and not be bashful about it. My soul was truly blessed.
My week has been really busy. It's like I have so much coming up that my mind seems to be getting cloudy. I hate it when it does that because I can feel the stress creeping up. Hopefully I can get that out of my system and be efficient in getting everything together.
So, today I ate at the dining hall with Mr. Richard. He tells me that he heard through a mutual associate of ours that she thought we were dating. Richard informed her that we were just friends. And as I sat there across from him as he laughed about it, I too said, "I can't believe she said that. Just because we hang out does not mean that something is going on." And the weird thing is, I didn't feel really bad about saying that. I learned a little bit more about Richard while eating and I can see that we would probably do much better as being friends than anything else. And I really think I'm cool with that. Of course, I might feel differently tomorrow, but I think I just need friends right now. I don't feel like having pressure and I definitely don't need it right now.
So, in spite of all the chaos in my life, I must say that I'm happy~boys or no boys, life will move on and I'll still be growing, which is most important. And I totally agree, I don't need to do anything because once a girl steps over the line and tries to be the initiator, she get's in trouble. I learned at the conference (well I was reminded) that it is the guy's job to pursue and the girl's job just to be pursued. A girl can't be pursued if she's on top of the guy; she's just in the way then. So, I'll just sit here and allow whoever is going to pursue me to get to working, 'cause I ain't doin' nothin' but sittin' here and keepin' it real. You feel me?
I'll start with last Friday. I traveled along with the gospel choir to a statewide gospel conference. I was really reluctant in going because quite honestly, I was tired and did not feel like being bothered with people for an entire weekend. But, I pushed all that aside and went into the trip with an open mind.
The first night was a great time; a good speaker, some decent food, and some wonderful fellowship with not only my own choir members, but with members from other choirs too (including, let's call him, infamous Mr. Cornelius). By the way, he asked about my lovely friend Lee. I told him that she was well. He proceeded to say that he had seen Lee on television and was shocked with what he saw; needless to say, he had a jolly good time talking about Lee. But, I stuck up for my friend. That's what friends are for.
Let's get back on track here. On Saturday, I experienced a message that caused me to feel a way that I have never felt before. The speaker is well known for his controversial messages, and after listening, I can clearly see why. Although I agreed with his message in some regards, I was disturbed by his message also. It came to a point where I started to get a little upset because his message insinuates that as Christians, we have to prove our Christianity to fellow believers. I feel that my personal relationship with God is proof enough and just because I may listen to certain music artists, does not mean that I am any less of a Christian. The last time I checked, my God is a mighty God and because of my faith, He will not allow for the enemy to attack my spirit because it's not the devil's to attack - it's the Lord's. Jesus is my homeboy. He's got my back.
Now, don't get me wrong. I learned a lot from that message. I learned that I need to be more aware of what I allow to penetrate my mind by doing more research. I need to educate myself because there is no excuse for not knowing. So, I actually appreciate the speaker for speaking about what he did this past weekend. May God bless him.
I did more singing at that conference than what I had ever done before. I'm surprised that I did not lose my voice. And the awesome part is that on Sunday, the choirs were absolutely incredible. God's presence was truly in the atmosphere. It's so encouraging to see college students boldly glorifying God through song and giving Him praises through various forms of ministry and not be bashful about it. My soul was truly blessed.
My week has been really busy. It's like I have so much coming up that my mind seems to be getting cloudy. I hate it when it does that because I can feel the stress creeping up. Hopefully I can get that out of my system and be efficient in getting everything together.
So, today I ate at the dining hall with Mr. Richard. He tells me that he heard through a mutual associate of ours that she thought we were dating. Richard informed her that we were just friends. And as I sat there across from him as he laughed about it, I too said, "I can't believe she said that. Just because we hang out does not mean that something is going on." And the weird thing is, I didn't feel really bad about saying that. I learned a little bit more about Richard while eating and I can see that we would probably do much better as being friends than anything else. And I really think I'm cool with that. Of course, I might feel differently tomorrow, but I think I just need friends right now. I don't feel like having pressure and I definitely don't need it right now.
So, in spite of all the chaos in my life, I must say that I'm happy~boys or no boys, life will move on and I'll still be growing, which is most important. And I totally agree, I don't need to do anything because once a girl steps over the line and tries to be the initiator, she get's in trouble. I learned at the conference (well I was reminded) that it is the guy's job to pursue and the girl's job just to be pursued. A girl can't be pursued if she's on top of the guy; she's just in the way then. So, I'll just sit here and allow whoever is going to pursue me to get to working, 'cause I ain't doin' nothin' but sittin' here and keepin' it real. You feel me?
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