Funny feelings on Valentine's Day...
I'm a little frustrated. I typed up this entire blog to have it just erase before my eyes when I attempted to publish it. So, now I'm writing it all over again. Let me see how much I remember...
Your letter was beautiful. Although you are not able to say what you feel to that special someone, I hope you feel better. I know how it feels to feel a certain way, but not being able to express it. It's not so much that you're not able to express it, but rather you find yourself limited because you're trying to appease the other party and not make them feel awkward. And since you're not able to help how you feel, it drives you crazy because it seems like you're the only one feeling that way and that everyone else is content with the current way of things. Does that even make any sense or am I just rambling?
Well, piano man came by today to give be a roll of toilet tissue (I've run out) and he brought my two chocolate roses (he gave me one last year and today, he told me that he will give me an extra rose each year). I made piano man a banana pudding for V-day; he's been saying that he has a taste for a homemade banana pudding. Hold on a second; let me give piano man a name. From now on, I'll refer to him as Moore. So, I went ahead and made him a decent sized pudding and presented it to him tonight. I also had made him a Valentine's Day card (one like you'd make in elementary school with the paper, markers, stickers and cut out hearts). However, on the inside, I actually wrote something from my heart. I did it in a creative way (I wrote the fairly long message in a circular pattern). It's probably going to drive him crazy when he reads it. I basically told him that I appreciate who he is and I thanked him for all the attributes I admire about him. I told him that I thank God for allowing me the opportunity to have him in my life. I summed it all up by saying, "I love you for being you." Of course I had to add a P.S. in there which said, "This card is for your eyes only. Happy Valentine's Day." When I gave him the card he was about to open it and read it in front of me, but I told him to not read it in my presence. He looked a little puzzled as to why I wouldn't want him to read it in front of me, to which I responded with, "I don't like when people read cards that I've given them in front of me." So, he went ahead and put the card away and left.
He'll be back later though. He asked me if he could spend the night in my room tonight because his roommate will be needing their room tonight. Gotta love the night of Valentine's Day. So, I told him he could and asked him to bring his X-box. The other night he asked me to play video games with him and I had a great time. I tried three games I've never played, and I absolutely loved this tennis game he has. It was really fun. Well, to be honest, playing video games all together is fun when playing with him. He talks a lot of noise, but so do I, and it's actually fun losing to him.
So, I shall see if he brings up the contents of the card in conversation tonight. I wonder if the card made him think, or if he just read it and tossed it to the side. I hope that if he does want to talk about it that I'm able to answer any questions he might have. All I know is that I'm feeling kind of funny right now, and quite frankly, it's nothing to laugh about.
Your letter was beautiful. Although you are not able to say what you feel to that special someone, I hope you feel better. I know how it feels to feel a certain way, but not being able to express it. It's not so much that you're not able to express it, but rather you find yourself limited because you're trying to appease the other party and not make them feel awkward. And since you're not able to help how you feel, it drives you crazy because it seems like you're the only one feeling that way and that everyone else is content with the current way of things. Does that even make any sense or am I just rambling?
Well, piano man came by today to give be a roll of toilet tissue (I've run out) and he brought my two chocolate roses (he gave me one last year and today, he told me that he will give me an extra rose each year). I made piano man a banana pudding for V-day; he's been saying that he has a taste for a homemade banana pudding. Hold on a second; let me give piano man a name. From now on, I'll refer to him as Moore. So, I went ahead and made him a decent sized pudding and presented it to him tonight. I also had made him a Valentine's Day card (one like you'd make in elementary school with the paper, markers, stickers and cut out hearts). However, on the inside, I actually wrote something from my heart. I did it in a creative way (I wrote the fairly long message in a circular pattern). It's probably going to drive him crazy when he reads it. I basically told him that I appreciate who he is and I thanked him for all the attributes I admire about him. I told him that I thank God for allowing me the opportunity to have him in my life. I summed it all up by saying, "I love you for being you." Of course I had to add a P.S. in there which said, "This card is for your eyes only. Happy Valentine's Day." When I gave him the card he was about to open it and read it in front of me, but I told him to not read it in my presence. He looked a little puzzled as to why I wouldn't want him to read it in front of me, to which I responded with, "I don't like when people read cards that I've given them in front of me." So, he went ahead and put the card away and left.
He'll be back later though. He asked me if he could spend the night in my room tonight because his roommate will be needing their room tonight. Gotta love the night of Valentine's Day. So, I told him he could and asked him to bring his X-box. The other night he asked me to play video games with him and I had a great time. I tried three games I've never played, and I absolutely loved this tennis game he has. It was really fun. Well, to be honest, playing video games all together is fun when playing with him. He talks a lot of noise, but so do I, and it's actually fun losing to him.
So, I shall see if he brings up the contents of the card in conversation tonight. I wonder if the card made him think, or if he just read it and tossed it to the side. I hope that if he does want to talk about it that I'm able to answer any questions he might have. All I know is that I'm feeling kind of funny right now, and quite frankly, it's nothing to laugh about.
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