It could all be so simple...
So, Eugene finally called me up last night and said he wanted to talk. I allowed him to come over, and we finally had a heart-to-heart conversation. He was a little under the influence (and I'm not talking about alcohol), so his emotions weren't all over the place, which helped. So, we've squashed it, and are willing to move on with placing a great emphasis on keeping communication open and not letting little things fester into big things. Progress has been made in that area and I'm happy.
It's so weird to have someone on your mind constantly, to the point where even your dreams are focusing on that individual (Moore). I went to his room last night and played a video game along with some of his friends. Clearly, I was absolutely horrible at it; everyone was laughing at me, including Moore, but when I would get up to leave, he would ask me to stay. I still ended up leaving though.
This morning, I woke up to get ready for church and I called Moore up and left him a message telling him what time I'm leaving, if he wanted to go, and to just be at my room at a certain time if he chose, otherwise "Have a nice day." So, it comes time for me to leave and Moore isn't at my room. I walk down the steps and am about to leave the building, when Moore enters the stairwell with his bible in hand and of course, my heart skips a beat. There's something about a young man with his bible that gives me chills. Jesus, help me!
So, we get to church. The spirit-filled atmosphere is set. Moore stands at my right with his head bowed and eyes closed. I stand by his side singing songs of praise. And I feel complete, yet empty at the same time, because clearly I don't know what's going on in his head.
It comes to the sermon and there is a guest preacher. The sermon title is so fit for my situation: "Making Decisions." And the entire time I'm wondering if Moore is seeing a connection or not. Him being a guy, I would doubt if it even crossed his mind. There are four questions I took away from the message that are crucial to think about when making a decision: "1. How will this decision affect me spiritually? 2. If I make this decision, what other decisions will I have to make? 3. If I make this decision, what effect will it have on my testimony? 4. How will my decision influence others?" A lot to think about.
So in essence, it is wise to take time to gather one's thoughts before making any decisions. But, I wonder if Moore is trying to figure me out to see if I meant I liked him by what I said, or if I was just saying things coming from a 'friend/sisterly' perspective. I don't know. I'm basically at a loss for words. It's like I want to bring up the subject with him, but I don't want to pressure him and ultimately scare him away. My brain, my heart, my, my, my. If only he truly knew of the spell he has on me...
It's so weird to have someone on your mind constantly, to the point where even your dreams are focusing on that individual (Moore). I went to his room last night and played a video game along with some of his friends. Clearly, I was absolutely horrible at it; everyone was laughing at me, including Moore, but when I would get up to leave, he would ask me to stay. I still ended up leaving though.
This morning, I woke up to get ready for church and I called Moore up and left him a message telling him what time I'm leaving, if he wanted to go, and to just be at my room at a certain time if he chose, otherwise "Have a nice day." So, it comes time for me to leave and Moore isn't at my room. I walk down the steps and am about to leave the building, when Moore enters the stairwell with his bible in hand and of course, my heart skips a beat. There's something about a young man with his bible that gives me chills. Jesus, help me!
So, we get to church. The spirit-filled atmosphere is set. Moore stands at my right with his head bowed and eyes closed. I stand by his side singing songs of praise. And I feel complete, yet empty at the same time, because clearly I don't know what's going on in his head.
It comes to the sermon and there is a guest preacher. The sermon title is so fit for my situation: "Making Decisions." And the entire time I'm wondering if Moore is seeing a connection or not. Him being a guy, I would doubt if it even crossed his mind. There are four questions I took away from the message that are crucial to think about when making a decision: "1. How will this decision affect me spiritually? 2. If I make this decision, what other decisions will I have to make? 3. If I make this decision, what effect will it have on my testimony? 4. How will my decision influence others?" A lot to think about.
So in essence, it is wise to take time to gather one's thoughts before making any decisions. But, I wonder if Moore is trying to figure me out to see if I meant I liked him by what I said, or if I was just saying things coming from a 'friend/sisterly' perspective. I don't know. I'm basically at a loss for words. It's like I want to bring up the subject with him, but I don't want to pressure him and ultimately scare him away. My brain, my heart, my, my, my. If only he truly knew of the spell he has on me...
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