To him...

So, I wrote this for him after he sent me an email a while back (of course I'm not giving it to him)...just my emotions at the time, that for some reason, even after a few months, are continuing to flood my insides again. Will this ever end???

To whom it may concern:

It's pure torture thinking about you
Wondering what could've been
Can friends truly be lovers?
If I had only opened up
There would be no doubt
Yay or nay
And I would know
The chapter would be closed
But, no matter how hard I try to move on
You enter my mind when I'm trying to keep focused
The book, refusing to close
Just sits there
Untouched, due to fear
All was fine 'til you broke the trend of non-communication between us
Through written language, of course
Acknowledging my feelings, but still remaining silent about yours
Maybe I did read correctly at that time
You entered my life for the season I needed you
Then you went away
Forcing me to figure some things out
To end the indecisiveness
Find out what I want and don't want
A lesson I needed to learn, in spite of the pain
And now, I surrender......
You're the standard
Following Paul's example; imitating the walk of Christ
Potentials vs. The Product
No one compares
You win everytime
"Flawless Victory," as in Mortal Kombat
Why must I be the victim in this battle of emotions?
But, the story can't just end like this
My spirit won't let it die
There's more to come
Another chapter to begin
Another tear to shed
Another note to write
Until then...
Sincerely,
Yours (or at least I'd like to think that)