Breaking the silence...

Yes, I'm mailing him this one.

Te Quiero y Te Echo De Menos …

It’s been a while
Although it’s only been about a month
It feels like a year’s passed
It’s true what they say
(At least for me, pertaining to you)
Absence makes the heart grow fonder

In the beginning
When I decided to separate myself from you
It was for me
My emotions were getting the best of me
Developing even deeper feelings
For an individual who was investing time
With other females who were becoming attached on all levels
It was weird for me
I began to feel how a ‘lover’ should feel
Not feeling like a friend who happens to be a girl
And I felt that wasn’t fair to me, to you, or to your “Shawties”
Detesting the idea of “A List”
’Cause I know I’m worth much more
Than a mental line or a category that you’ve created
That can be erased at any given moment
Just depending on how you happen to feel at the time
So, I unplugged the cord…….at least for that season

But as time passed
I used the time as a period for you
To give you time to clear your mind
Whether that happened…only God knows
He heard my prayers for you
As I awoke in the morning
And dozed off at night
Whether He answered them…that’s up to Him
For He truly knows what you need
I only ask that His will be done through you
And that you allow Him to use you

I have learned a lot during this time
But the greatest is the concept of grace
(As I remember us discussing once before)
It’s absolutely profound…not to be rationalized
And each time I think of it
Tears seem to well up in my eyes
The human mind is not even designed
To fully grasp the concept
But I do know, that I sure am thankful for it

You might not understand how someone can care for you and trust you
In spite of yourself
But again, it’s not meant to be understood
Just let your faith accept if for you
I’ve told you before that I’m thankful for you, but I’ll say it again anyway
Why?
Just because
And it’s true
As I write this while of sound mind, body, and spirit…I love you and I miss you.