Slowly, but surely...

Now, a 'good' friend would just tell you, "Girl, I know you're feeling bad. I'm so sorry." And the friend would continue to try to console you. But a 'great' friend would remind you of the true person they know that you are.

The girl I know is a soldier. I mean this girl is so driven that she puts me to shame (and I'm all that and a bag of chips, so that's really saying something~smile). She knows what she wants and doesn't give up until she feels personal fulfillment. She has such a commanding presence that even the ambience of a room can be determined just by her attitude. She has.......it. Words cannot express how I feel about this person, because mere words won't suffice.

Don't feel bad because you're in a drought phase. Fresh rain is coming. What may be a 'bad season' to you is a 'good season' for God to reveal himself to you. I know this sounds so cliche. But, I know there is a reason for you to be going through this. I don't know why. We never know. All I know is that there is no mistake that I play a role in your life and because of that, all I can do as a child of God is to make sure that I fulfill my role in your life, not just because God has commanded me to do so, but because I love you.

I want you to do me a favor. I need you to read the story of Job. Read the book of Job in its entirety. It's 42 chapters, but it's worth it. I'll read it too. You're not in this alone, baby. If you hurt, I hurt. If you're happy, I'm happy. If you're.....hungry (just kiddin' with you; well, actually I'd probably be hungry too).

Now, there is one thing that you're going to have to do in order to get over this hump; you're going to have to forgive. I'm not talking about others. I'm talking about yourself. If you keep holding onto the burden(s) of the past, how do you expect for God to do his job in your life and make it all better? He can't do what you want him to do if you keep holding on. Let it go. Just let it go. I know it's hard, because you have so many questions. Why??? Because you wouldn't be here right now if it had not happened. You wouldn't be searching for a greater purpose. You wouldn't be empty, so that God can fill you up. You'd be the same person as before, with God in the passenger seat. God wants to drive, baby. He wants to lead you to a destination that you never thought existed. He wants to show you something, but he can't show it to you if you're still looking back. Move forward; regression can no longer be in your mindset. It's all about progression now. (Wow, I'm preaching to myself too.)

Go to the doctor please. I can't be having your beautiful head of hair falling out. Nah sir! I ain't havin' it! And don't feel bad if you need to go to some one-on-one therapy sessions too. Whatever you need to get you through this is necessary. And I'll back you 110%; just don't do no crazy shit. (You smiled, didn't you? There you go.)

As always, you're on my mind. I'm not giving up on you. Now, wipe your eyes and go read Job.

It's easier said than done...

Honey, I've read the words from your soul. And my soul aches with you. I too found myself crying today (my cell phone is broken and I won't be able to get one in the near future). Now, the tears weren't so much based off of that, but the tears just started falling like something was seriously wrong with me. My friends were like, "Girl, it's going to be okay. Don't stress over it." But, they didn't understand where the tears were coming from because clearly, I didn't even know. Maybe I was crying your tears too. That's just an obscure thought, but maybe we are connected on that level, where when you feel pain, I feel it too. And it's not a pretty feeling, I know.

Now, I can't sit here and tell you what to do to make you feel better. Only time (humanity's worse enemy in times like this) will tell. But what I can say is that you are not forgotten. No matter what you feel, know that the ONE has it all under control. You have to have faith in times like this to make it through. Without it, it will be pure hell. And remember, I' m here. I might not be physically there (which would be awesome), but I'm here thinking about you and praying (if you don't pray, rest assured that you're covered on my end). But, I've learned that it's when you're down that God wants to hear from you the most. Be real; that's all He wants.

To sum this all up, I looked up a passage of scripture that you might be able to relate to. Pay attention, particularly to the psalmist's consistent thought in the passage. I challenge you to give it a try. Just try, and wait patiently......

Psalm 42
As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, O God.
My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When can I go and meet with God?
My tears have been my food day and night, while men say to me all day long, "Where is your God?"
These things I remember as I pour out my soul: how I used to go with the multitude, leading the procession to the house of God, with shouts of joy and thanksgiving among the festive throng.
Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.
My soul is downcast within me; therefore I will remember you from the land of the Jordan, the heights of Hermon-from Mount Mizar.
Deep calls to deep in the roar of your waterfalls; all your waves and breakers have swept over me.
By day the Lord directs his love, at night his song is with me-a prayer to the God of my life.
I say to God my Rock, "Why have you forgotten me? Why must I go about mourning oppressed by the enemy?"
My bones suffer mortal agony as my foes taunt me, saying to me all day long, "Where is your God?"
Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.