How I'm feeling...

I Ain't Gotta Have a Reason 2 Feel How I Feel.

Sometimes I wanna cuss u out
No reason
Just do
Tired of tha same 'ole crap
Expectin' somethin'
But gettin' nothin'
Settin' myself up 4 disappointment
Expectations will getcha' everytime
Redundancy
In yo' words
Sayin' bogus junk; when u choose 2 talk
REDUNDANCY
In yo' actions
Livin' trife; like a dog in heat
re-dun-dan-cy
Talkin' in circles
U expect a person 2 follow dat?
Makin' my head hurt
Don't make no sense 2 nobody, but yo'self
U betta go on wit dat
Your sarcasm isn't needed at this time, thank you
Save dat 4 some otha' chick
Cuz I ain't tha one
(I am not a fool
Yet, I feel like one
No, that's nonsense
But only a fool would get caught up with fools, right?
Ugh........upset with myself
Knowing well, that I have far more productive things to do
Than sitting around, allowing you to consume my thoughts)
U gotta lot of growin' up 2 do!!!
Yeah I'm talkin' 2 u!
What's wrong, man?
Why u neva wanna talk about it?
Dang, I cain't even get a text from yo' butt!
What's up wit dat?
Excuse me...Why u laughin'?
It ain't funny!
And u keep gigglin' & askin' me what's MY problem???
Why am I silent, u ask?
Cuz I'm done talkin'
If u know me, like u say u do
You'd figure it out, Mr. Smarty
My words wouldn't be needed
Cuz my silence can speak 4 itself
If you'd just STOP.....
Hault in your tracks 4 one second
Acknowledge my presence
Genuinely ask me how I feel
Don't cut me with your words;
Talk 2 me with sincerity
That's all I ask
Care about me, like I care about u
PLEASE!
Or is that too much 4 me 2 ask of u???

The passing of time...

I actually have a moment. It's like I'm sitting here trying to find something to say. I mean it has been a long time...a little over a month since I've written. And a lot has happened during this time. I've learned a lot about myself and others. I've cried a lot, prayed a lot and pondered. And I'm still pondering. About what, I can't really express in words. I find myself just sitting with that blah feeling; not feeling depressed or anything, but just thinking about nothing. Like it's kind of like I'm at the point of just letting things go and stop stressing over things I have no control over. What's the point to be stressed? Life's too short to be caught up over the small things (although they might seem big at the moment, in the future, they'll seem so insignificant). So, my mentality is slowly changing; yes, slowly. God's already figured it out; just let it be.

To be quite honest, I'm kind of sleepy right now and because I can't seem to find the adequate words to say, I'm thinking that a nap sounds really good right now. Maybe, I'll try later. We'll see. Sweet dreams...